THAT DAY:
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
dontcry.dontcry.dontcry
here's how i found it out
i've seen him in my "who's viewed me" in my friendster so i got the guts to send him a message and a comment. i said to him that i find the time that we had in merida very wasted because it was supposed to be the time when i'll finally get the answers to all my questions. but i also told him that maybe it was not wasted at all, maybe it was just not the perfect time for me to know the answers yet.before i did that, our common friend sent me a message with the phrase: "love pa nimo sya dai.,.,.,hehehe..." well then, i asked him if it was a question or a statement. i also said that if it's a question the answer is yes but if it's a statement i'll agree with him. in addition to that, i also told him that however i felt for him does not really matter to him now.
after i sent him the message, i viewed his old account and i was squeezed when i saw an album entitled, "me and my mommy".omg!that's the only word that came out to my mouth.though i was already sure what it was and who that girl could be in his life, i sill viewed the photos in that album just to confirm the obvious truth."oh my God!oh my God!oh my God!"well, what more can i say? i need someone to talk to that very moment but i can't find one.ate joy was there but she was too happy that time and i don't want to ruin her disposition. so when she came out all i did was i gave her the biggest smile that i could have and gave her a good wish of enjoyment in her date. so i just sent him a message saying that the album that he posted summed up all the answers to my question and i assured him that i was ok and cool and that i won't be freaking out.i also asked him to love the girl and begged him not to try in hurting the girl ever.
i was about to sent my friend a message about what happened but the thought that facing the same social networking where i found the truth is just so unbearable.so i went out and my brain is commanding me to go to the apartment.maybe somebody's there.when i was in the tricycle,my tears are crazy kicking to pour out.i prayed that i couldn't cry there and i said to God that i need someone to talk to and asked Him to let somebody be in the apartment.when i finally got there,nobody was there.so i finally cried on my own. it just hurts so much. i don't think any word in the dictionary could define the pain that i felt that time. and nobody could.
well,surprisingly i managed to show the people that surrounds me that nothing happened.i still managed to show them the smile that they always get from me.
it was a Wednesday night and i need to be in the church.it was the talk that i,mommy bless and ate joy had. mommy knew it at tuesday night so she haven't told me about it yet.anyways, i told them how i found it out and i finally said,"the girl is very pretty, as in!"
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